Too much (I just didn't know)

Last week was the "big push" that always happens right before a show. It's the time where you finish all the little things that have been left undone (if there are still a lot of big things to do, then you're in trouble). But it's amazing how much time and thought and energy have to go into tying up all of those lose ends. It's leaves me exhausted and working crazy hours. As some of my friends have pointed out, this time I was way too intense over the whole thing and thinking about and stressing over things that weren't ultimately my responsibility. Which I am sure is why I was not sleeping. This part of a show is usually my favorite time, but I took more on myself than I was asked to and ended up being unable to sleep and barely civil to those I love most. So sorry if you had the misfortune to encounter me in this state.

I guess the point of all this is, I am a person who likes, no, loves to be helpful and who wants to live a life of integrity and also not be considered a slacker or not do my share. But it is easier than I thought to get such severe tunnel vision and become consumed by those things that I think are my responsibility. I honestly had no idea until this week of how extreme I was behaving - oh, I knew I was stressed, but didn't realize just how much my behavior had changed or how it was affecting those around me. I will pay more attention next time when people comment on my attitude. But I must say, I do have great co workers who make the theater a great fun place to be, when my craziness isn't in the way. ;)

Anyway, the cast of Anne Frank are doing an amazing job, and if you get the chance to see it, I would recommend it. It will make you laugh and cry and think and feel.